[ sending a text a little later when he doesn't see bradley around... even if sebastian isn't the most observant person, he couldn't miss how rough the end of that trial was on him.
and now... they're going to be all that's left of their group from last week, huh. ]
[ it was nice distracting himself with his successes for a minute there, but his smile fades again, and he nods. ]
Yeah. There was just... a lot. Sheila, and Rin freaking out, and... finally knowing whose fault it was Bucky died.
...Maybe it's not fair to say that, since it was probably a shadow with him too, but... it sucks that he'd never admitted it even after the shadow was gone.
Self preservation's a valuable skill. [ There's still a certain bite to it. He doesn't accept Diluc or what he's done. But intellectually he knows that's a reasonable reaction, staying alive is something most people want. ]
...it's not a real chess set, the board and pieces are all glued together. he doesn't know how to play it anyway. at least he doesn't have to admit that to kaeya now. ]
I guess. I don't... think I'd be able to deal with that guilt, though. I mean, once my hostage was safe, I'd...
The whole thing was a computer simulation so none of it even really happened. And the dead people just like... came out of a tree in the middle of the trial.
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week 4, saturday
and now... they're going to be all that's left of their group from last week, huh. ]
hey :( are you ok?
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It takes a bit of time, but he answers back.]
I will be.
[Wounds need time to heal, even the emotional ones. He hasn't been getting much of that lately.]
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[ and after a while ]
you want me to bring you anything?
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Oh...! I thought you weren't going to want to come out tonight.
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[he just pushes in, unfortunately he's rude. At least he pats Sebastian's head.]
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[ oh. well, it's okay, he doesn't mind. his room is pretty fun, but unfortunately it has zero couches. ]
Sorry, there aren't that many places to sit...
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[He's just circling around the room, checking the place out.]
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[ What do you mean legitimately earning, Bradley's a criminal. ]
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They're from all the competitions and stuff I won! Like, debates and mock trials and writing contests and whatever!
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He allows that to sit for a moment. ]
You okay? Looked rough at the end. [ As if anybody was holding it together. ]
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Yeah. There was just... a lot. Sheila, and Rin freaking out, and... finally knowing whose fault it was Bucky died.
...Maybe it's not fair to say that, since it was probably a shadow with him too, but... it sucks that he'd never admitted it even after the shadow was gone.
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Felt long and short at the same time.
Self preservation's a valuable skill. [ There's still a certain bite to it. He doesn't accept Diluc or what he's done. But intellectually he knows that's a reasonable reaction, staying alive is something most people want. ]
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...it's not a real chess set, the board and pieces are all glued together. he doesn't know how to play it anyway. at least he doesn't have to admit that to kaeya now. ]
I guess. I don't... think I'd be able to deal with that guilt, though. I mean, once my hostage was safe, I'd...
[ though he trails off and frowns at that. ]
...I don't know.
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You ain't the type that's suited to this. [ What's wrong, what's right. Those things seem to weigh on his mind much more than on Bradley's. ]
Wanting to live ain't a bad thing. Smart to run when ya know you can't win.
I'm still fucking pissed at ponytail.
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[ he rubs his eye. ]
If the shadows ever do it to me... I hope I don't get away with it.
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[ That doesn't mean they'll find all of them. ]
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I can't believe half of our group from that dungeon place is gonna be gone after this.
We're... gonna be able to get them all back eventually, right? I don't... I don't know how that's ever worked before.
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Can't be your first time through.
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At the school we were put into a hold buildin' 'til we could get the keys to get out. Dunno how it went for the rest of 'em.
Don't think they're gone forever, even if their bodies are missin'. They're probably being held elsewhere.