[ it is fine because i had to make up most of my memories lmao. anyway.
that memory is a lot; it's a world so far removed from his own — where every little personal success or frustration feels like a huge life-affirming or world-ending deal — that it's a little difficult to process, and if he wasn't feeling all of this and experiencing these thoughts firsthand, he doesn't know that he'd be able to understand the weight of everything at all.
that relief at knowing he'd saved someone, in particular, is so strong that for a moment when the memory's ended it still feels like it's his, before he remembers that no, actually, he'd just watched his best friend be executed today because he'd failed to save him.
he wipes the tears — probably both his and that past dimitri's — from his eyes on the back of his hand and takes a deep breath, trying to separate out his own feelings and put them aside. ]
...You're a good person.
[ maybe that's not really what he was supposed to take away from that, but. between his feelings here and what he's seen from him in trial, he thinks he's pretty admirable. ]
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that memory is a lot; it's a world so far removed from his own — where every little personal success or frustration feels like a huge life-affirming or world-ending deal — that it's a little difficult to process, and if he wasn't feeling all of this and experiencing these thoughts firsthand, he doesn't know that he'd be able to understand the weight of everything at all.
that relief at knowing he'd saved someone, in particular, is so strong that for a moment when the memory's ended it still feels like it's his, before he remembers that no, actually, he'd just watched his best friend be executed today because he'd failed to save him.
he wipes the tears — probably both his and that past dimitri's — from his eyes on the back of his hand and takes a deep breath, trying to separate out his own feelings and put them aside. ]
...You're a good person.
[ maybe that's not really what he was supposed to take away from that, but. between his feelings here and what he's seen from him in trial, he thinks he's pretty admirable. ]