sebastian hadn't gotten to know marie well enough to even suspect she might have gone through anything like that — even if maybe he should have from her scary moments during trials, but as he's so often reminded, he's never been as good at putting two and two together as he likes to think he is — so it's shocking for that on top of everything else. it's awful and sad and...
and feeling that anger is strange and foreign. maybe it's just because this is on such a different scale; maybe if pops had hurt him this much he'd be mad too... but he has a hard time imagining it. he's always accepted that he just isn't good enough for him, and he's never stopped admiring and adoring him. ever since monday, people who've seen those memories have told him that he should be mad too, and shouldn't just take it, but...
it takes him a moment to shake himself out of it when the memory's over. ]
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sebastian hadn't gotten to know marie well enough to even suspect she might have gone through anything like that — even if maybe he should have from her scary moments during trials, but as he's so often reminded, he's never been as good at putting two and two together as he likes to think he is — so it's shocking for that on top of everything else. it's awful and sad and...
and feeling that anger is strange and foreign. maybe it's just because this is on such a different scale; maybe if pops had hurt him this much he'd be mad too... but he has a hard time imagining it. he's always accepted that he just isn't good enough for him, and he's never stopped admiring and adoring him. ever since monday, people who've seen those memories have told him that he should be mad too, and shouldn't just take it, but...
it takes him a moment to shake himself out of it when the memory's over. ]
Marie...
S-sorry, I didn't mean to...
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[ She lifts her hands. Fingers curling into her palms as her shoulders slump back. ]
I'm sorry you had to see that.
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In a way... it feels like I'm looking into the memory of a different person, so I just feel as invasive as you do.