[ that's a relief, because honestly, he doesn't feel bad about voting out hua cheng; he just feels a little bad about not feeling that bad. everything else, though... has been rough. ]

Yeah... It's been... pretty bad.

A-at least that should have been the last time, though? Supposedly next week is just... figuring out how to save everyone, I guess.

[ he pauses. ]

These last few weeks... I was really scared that the shadows were going to make me do it too. Early on I was just scared of someone else killing me, but... after the memories and stuff, seeing how people felt about mine...

I... I love my pops, but... I really hated the idea of most people here dying for his sake.