there's a long hesitation after that as he debates bringing this up, but he feels terrible and he doesn't want them thinking he's as terrible as he feels. ]
I told him it was the only way to save you, a-and if he didn't, then he'd have to keep living without you there. And... he didn't want to be alone, so he said okay.
[ he probably doesn't need to keep saying any of this, but... nobody else was there to hear what actually happened, and as far as he knows, bradley and jason never even knew about everything that would have happened in the future. he feels guilty enough already when he has the full context for everything, so he has to look awful to someone who doesn't. he doesn't want them to look at him the same way that cat did. ]
When we showed up there— we'd come from the future to stop him. B-because if you did die, he would have lost control and become a monster himself and— and set that whole world on a really bad path. I... I didn't tell him that part, because I didn't want him to have to feel guilty about it.
If he made the choice, then it was his choice to make. He did say... he wanted to be useful. No one should have to sacrifice their life for everything, [JAN] but I think helping to save a future is something he'd be proud of doing.
[He listens, quietly to absorb all the information Sebastian is throwing at them.
Bradley puts a hand on Sebastian's head.]
He made the choice knowingly. [It's a lot better than most people get.] The circumstances were fucked. Everybody did what they could. [And sometimes, even then, that leads to people dying.]
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Their favorite entertainment's death, ain't it? But they prefer when it's us killing each other.
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[ so. he's just saying. that tracks? ]
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[ did some of them go a little insane? ]
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Loss of control. Like the end of this one for me and Jason.
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there's a long hesitation after that as he debates bringing this up, but he feels terrible and he doesn't want them thinking he's as terrible as he feels. ]
...H-he did agree, by the way. Ben did.
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... Thanks for telling me.
[ If that was Ben's choice, he has to accept it. ]
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[ he probably doesn't need to keep saying any of this, but... nobody else was there to hear what actually happened, and as far as he knows, bradley and jason never even knew about everything that would have happened in the future. he feels guilty enough already when he has the full context for everything, so he has to look awful to someone who doesn't. he doesn't want them to look at him the same way that cat did. ]
When we showed up there— we'd come from the future to stop him. B-because if you did die, he would have lost control and become a monster himself and— and set that whole world on a really bad path. I... I didn't tell him that part, because I didn't want him to have to feel guilty about it.
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If he made the choice, then it was his choice to make. He did say... he wanted to be useful. No one should have to sacrifice their life for everything, [JAN] but I think helping to save a future is something he'd be proud of doing.
You were with him, too. He wasn't alone.
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he nods, and wipes his eyes. ]
...Thanks.
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i don't know if he ever knew he was a clock. ]
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Bradley puts a hand on Sebastian's head.]
He made the choice knowingly. [It's a lot better than most people get.] The circumstances were fucked. Everybody did what they could. [And sometimes, even then, that leads to people dying.]
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