Y-yeah. I just... I feel like I already did. I went to the best legal school, and I graduated at the top of my class, and I won every mock trial and debate competition, so... I don't know why I'm not better when I'm supposed to be the best.
It's like things that felt easy before... aren't anymore. And now people keep acting like they expect me to fail, when everyone used to say everything I did was perfect.
...Pops was the chief prosecutor when I was growing up, and he was amazing.
[ his hand goes to the badge on his lapel. ]
So I thought if I followed in his footsteps and became the best just like he was, then... we'd have something in common, and I'd be someone he was proud to have as a son. [ ... ] Instead of just some idiot who messes everything up all the time.
[ yeah... he guesses that's how it's supposed to be, isn't it? in all the cartoons he used to watch, the parents still loved their kids at the end when the credits ran, no matter what hijinks they'd gotten themselves into during that week's episode.
if his parents couldn't feel that same way about him — he'd been sure mom had loved him, but then she'd disappeared without a word and left him behind; and backhanded compliments about how he's such a good boy even if he's an idiot are the best he can ever hope to get from pops — doesn't that just mean that he's the problem?
the tears he'd been doing his best to hold back spill over; he wipes them away quickly on his sleeve, then keeps his arm covering his eyes for a few more seconds until he gets it together. ]
[ he absolutely will. he's a little awkward about it because it's been a long time since anyone did this, but once he gets how this works when he's the taller person, he hugs her back pretty tightly. ]
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It's better to take a while and to make a fair judgment that's right and that you feel is right than to rush into one that you aren't sure of.
If you are wrong when you jump too fast, doesn't that harm more than just you?
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But they seem right at the time... and my pops is always fast and right, so I should be able to do that too!
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You can become fast and right, if you put in the proper work.
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It's like things that felt easy before... aren't anymore. And now people keep acting like they expect me to fail, when everyone used to say everything I did was perfect.
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Why did you choose to be a prosecutor, Sebastian?
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[ his hand goes to the badge on his lapel. ]
So I thought if I followed in his footsteps and became the best just like he was, then... we'd have something in common, and I'd be someone he was proud to have as a son. [ ... ] Instead of just some idiot who messes everything up all the time.
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[ But she knows it's not always that easy. Some parents leave a lot of room to be desired. ]
You'll get there, if it's at pace that suits you.
closes eyes... emotional abuse cw ig
if his parents couldn't feel that same way about him — he'd been sure mom had loved him, but then she'd disappeared without a word and left him behind; and backhanded compliments about how he's such a good boy even if he's an idiot are the best he can ever hope to get from pops — doesn't that just mean that he's the problem?
the tears he'd been doing his best to hold back spill over; he wipes them away quickly on his sleeve, then keeps his arm covering his eyes for a few more seconds until he gets it together. ]
I... I guess...
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Will he accept a hug? Because if he won't shy away, Jeanne will try to give him a hug. ]
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...Thanks.