The party was fun, mostly... but... it also just rubbed in how much I'm not part of the same... [ starts to make a vague gesture with the hand holding the glass again, but he catches himself fast enough this time!! ] ...whatever, you know? Like, pretty much all the rest of you already had good friends when you got here! And you guys played these games before and you have all these memories, and it just... feels like I'm some stupid kid who isn't supposed to be here...
You said yours was the... virtual world game? That one wasn't very long, if I remember rightly...?
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The only reason I'd say I count any of the people from my old situation as friends is because we went through hell for two months with each other. I wasn't playing party games and trusting them with my secrets two weeks after meeting them.
Have you been talking to everyone? Touching base with the people around your age?
Yeah. And that's just the thing! You guys have your own like, special groups because you went through all that! And then it's just me and Sylvain from that one, but he has people he already knew from home, so it's not the same for him either!
[ also he's a big red slut ]
Estelle's the only one who's close, but she's cute and awesome so everyone loves her. [ as they should!! ] So that's not the same either...
I don't know... I mean, there are people here that I like a lot, but... I don't know if they actually like me that much.
[ he sets the glass down and wipes his eyes on the back of his hand. ]
I was sure someone really liked me once, but then she left... and Kazunari is being weird and not calling me by the nickname he usually uses s-so maybe I was just imagining that too...
[ he sighs. ] You can’t force things out of people. And if he’s saying you haven’t done anything wrong, then it sounds like it’s a him issue, and it may not be directly related to you.
We’re in a weird situation. People’s emotions are all over the place a lot of the time. And also — [ baps him on the forehead. ] So what if “everyone likes Estelle”, if you enjoy spending time with her and she enjoys spending time with you then just enjoy your friendship for what it is, without comparing it to other people’s friendships with her.
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[ somehow manages to tip his water glass a little too much when he looks up and splashes some of it on his shirt ]
Ugh!!!!
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……….
…………………………. he sits down in front of him, crossed legged. ]
Alright sunshine, what’s up?
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[ nnnggghhh....... sigh ]
The party was fun, mostly... but... it also just rubbed in how much I'm not part of the same... [ starts to make a vague gesture with the hand holding the glass again, but he catches himself fast enough this time!! ] ...whatever, you know? Like, pretty much all the rest of you already had good friends when you got here! And you guys played these games before and you have all these memories, and it just... feels like I'm some stupid kid who isn't supposed to be here...
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You said yours was the... virtual world game? That one wasn't very long, if I remember rightly...?
[ ... ]
The only reason I'd say I count any of the people from my old situation as friends is because we went through hell for two months with each other. I wasn't playing party games and trusting them with my secrets two weeks after meeting them.
Have you been talking to everyone? Touching base with the people around your age?
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Yeah. And that's just the thing! You guys have your own like, special groups because you went through all that! And then it's just me and Sylvain from that one, but he has people he already knew from home, so it's not the same for him either!
[ also he's a big red slut ]
Estelle's the only one who's close, but she's cute and awesome so everyone loves her. [ as they should!! ] So that's not the same either...
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I'll be honest, it sounds like you're slamming doors shut before you've even tried to get them open. Does Estelle like spending time with you?
[ sylvain is a big red slut, it's true. ]
And with Sylvain... sure, he has people he knows from home. But he didn't know me, I just bother him because I do recognise him. It's not impossible.
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[ he sets the glass down and wipes his eyes on the back of his hand. ]
I was sure someone really liked me once, but then she left... and Kazunari is being weird and not calling me by the nickname he usually uses s-so maybe I was just imagining that too...
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Have you... talked to him? About it?
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[ i can't believe yuri leclerc is telling someone that they should be honest with their feeling what a hypocrite. ]
Actually tell him if you're worried you've done something that he didn't like, that you've noticed he's not using your nickname. That kind of thing.
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[ also i'm writing these threads simultaneously so lmao ]
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[ he sighs. ] You can’t force things out of people. And if he’s saying you haven’t done anything wrong, then it sounds like it’s a him issue, and it may not be directly related to you.
We’re in a weird situation. People’s emotions are all over the place a lot of the time. And also — [ baps him on the forehead. ] So what if “everyone likes Estelle”, if you enjoy spending time with her and she enjoys spending time with you then just enjoy your friendship for what it is, without comparing it to other people’s friendships with her.