Uh, well. I-it wasn't anything here, but, um, on that excision this week... w-well, the whole story's really long and complicated, but to save Bradley and Jason, I had to... I had to kill this kid.
[ he takes a deep breath and closes his eyes. ]
I, uh... I explained to him that it was the only way to save them, a-and he agreed to it, because he wanted to save them too, but... it just... felt really, really bad, and I've... kind of been having a hard time with it.
[ he's lousy at comforting people, but he does reach to squeeze his shoulder. ]
Those excursions are not real, but I understand that your actions feel genuine. While I hope you can put it behind you... [ hm ] I do not think it is such a bad thing to feel guilt. If hurting someone troubles you this greatly—even an illusion, even one who agrees to die—then it means you still care about people.
It is certainly better than feeling nothing at all.
[ he doesn't tense up under that shoulder squeeze anymore like he used to. he listens... and nods. ]
Yeah... I'd be pretty scared if I didn't feel anything about it.
[ he rubs his eyes a little, wiping away the tears before any can actually fall this time. ]
...I didn't vote for you, so... sorry. I-I mean, I didn't vote for anyone innocent either [ diluc is just his permanent backup vote now ], but. I just felt kind of weird about it after you thanked us for catching you. [ ... ] I think what I'm most scared of now is getting forced into doing it for real here and having someone innocent get punished for it, like Bucky did.
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Y-yeah...
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You can speak freely if something wears on you, Sebastian.
[ he's going to be dead tomorrow so like, he'll be great at keeping any secrets. ]
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[ he takes a deep breath and closes his eyes. ]
I, uh... I explained to him that it was the only way to save them, a-and he agreed to it, because he wanted to save them too, but... it just... felt really, really bad, and I've... kind of been having a hard time with it.
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[ he's lousy at comforting people, but he does reach to squeeze his shoulder. ]
Those excursions are not real, but I understand that your actions feel genuine. While I hope you can put it behind you... [ hm ] I do not think it is such a bad thing to feel guilt. If hurting someone troubles you this greatly—even an illusion, even one who agrees to die—then it means you still care about people.
It is certainly better than feeling nothing at all.
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Yeah... I'd be pretty scared if I didn't feel anything about it.
[ he rubs his eyes a little, wiping away the tears before any can actually fall this time. ]
...I didn't vote for you, so... sorry. I-I mean, I didn't vote for anyone innocent either [ diluc is just his permanent backup vote now ], but. I just felt kind of weird about it after you thanked us for catching you. [ ... ] I think what I'm most scared of now is getting forced into doing it for real here and having someone innocent get punished for it, like Bucky did.