Y-yeah, I did. Lup and Estelle... I told them about it that night after I got back. And Rin the next day. I just kind of felt like I needed to... confess my sins or whatever, I guess... and to explain why I was such a mess when I hardly had any injuries.
It was— I know it was the best thing to do in that situation. I don't even know if that world or anyone in it was actually real, but if it was... then doing that saved a lot more people than just them, even. But I still kind of just... hate knowing I was able to do it at all. You know?
...Trust me, I know. Even if it might have helped someone in the end, it doesn't erase the feeling of killing someone else. It never will.
[ this is unusually soemn, for kazunari. ]
The only thing you can do is remember that you did it to help someone, not out of cruelty, and try to find something to keep you going. Which you must have, right? It's not like you to give up.
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Y-yeah, I did. Lup and Estelle... I told them about it that night after I got back. And Rin the next day. I just kind of felt like I needed to... confess my sins or whatever, I guess... and to explain why I was such a mess when I hardly had any injuries.
It was— I know it was the best thing to do in that situation. I don't even know if that world or anyone in it was actually real, but if it was... then doing that saved a lot more people than just them, even. But I still kind of just... hate knowing I was able to do it at all. You know?
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[ this is unusually soemn, for kazunari. ]
The only thing you can do is remember that you did it to help someone, not out of cruelty, and try to find something to keep you going. Which you must have, right? It's not like you to give up.