No, you don't have to apologize. I'm just worried about you, is all. It sounded kind of personal to you...?
...Ah, but you don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to. I know talking about some things can be hard, so I just want to make sure you're okay. We could also just try to find something to get your mind off of it for now.
[ does seb want to talk or does he want a distraction? kazu's here to offer it either way. ]
[ he bites his lip, not sure what adjective he wants to use there, and finally just drops it. ]
Well. My mom just... disappeared a few years ago. Like, I came home from school one day, and she wasn't there. And I still don't really know what happened, or why she left.
[ he fidgets with the hem of one of his gloves. ]
I-I'm not mad at her, because, you know, maybe something happened, or maybe there was a reason.
[ and maybe it was him. ]
...But when I asked that guy why he didn't tell his wife he was okay, he just said he didn't feel like it! So... I got really mad about it. I know it's not even the same situation, since she was probably sure he was dead, but still... I mean, I remember Pops cried a lot when he told me he couldn't find her...
[ well, he'd already done such a bad job of keeping it bottled up like usual today that he might as well give someone an explanation so he doesn't just look insane... besides, he doesn't usually have anyone actually offer to listen to anything he has to say.
...well, not back home, anyway. the touch on his arm reminds him a little of jeanne. it's nice. ]
Yeah... I-it's okay, though. I mean, it's usually fine.
[ what the fuck that's so sad?! WHY AREN'T THEY NICE TO SEBASTIAN?! ]
Maybe it's something you've gotten used to, but that doesn't make it okay. It still hurt, didn't it? No matter how smart or how good of a prosecutor you are, that kind of thing doesn't just go away.
...Do you get a lot of time to yourself? Or are you always busy working on cases and stuff?
[ he gets the feeling seb is the type of guy who needs to prove himself to everyone and does that by not letting himself feel his feelings when he needs to and that's? really worrying? ]
I mean, I'm usually pretty busy... but, you know, it's best to be productive instead of wasting time being upset about things. That's what Pops always says.
...I don't think it's a waste to let yourself think about those things sometimes. It's... more a matter of whether you think about it too much, or let it hold you back, you know?
Sometimes it's good to give yourself some time for something like that.
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Hey. You okay? It looked like you were getting really worked up there.
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...Ah, but you don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to. I know talking about some things can be hard, so I just want to make sure you're okay. We could also just try to find something to get your mind off of it for now.
[ does seb want to talk or does he want a distraction? kazu's here to offer it either way. ]
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Yeah, I... guess I got kind of, um.
[ he bites his lip, not sure what adjective he wants to use there, and finally just drops it. ]
Well. My mom just... disappeared a few years ago. Like, I came home from school one day, and she wasn't there. And I still don't really know what happened, or why she left.
[ he fidgets with the hem of one of his gloves. ]
I-I'm not mad at her, because, you know, maybe something happened, or maybe there was a reason.
[ and maybe it was him. ]
...But when I asked that guy why he didn't tell his wife he was okay, he just said he didn't feel like it! So... I got really mad about it. I know it's not even the same situation, since she was probably sure he was dead, but still... I mean, I remember Pops cried a lot when he told me he couldn't find her...
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Oh...
[ yeah, the trial outburst is totally understandable now. kazu touches his arm, gentle and reassuring. you're not alone, little guy. ]
It must have really hurt to hear that, after what you and your dad went through. I'm sorry, buddy.
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...well, not back home, anyway. the touch on his arm reminds him a little of jeanne. it's nice. ]
Yeah... I-it's okay, though. I mean, it's usually fine.
There's just... a lot going on.
[ obviously. ]
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Maybe it's something you've gotten used to, but that doesn't make it okay. It still hurt, didn't it? No matter how smart or how good of a prosecutor you are, that kind of thing doesn't just go away.
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Well... yeah...
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[ he gets the feeling seb is the type of guy who needs to prove himself to everyone and does that by not letting himself feel his feelings when he needs to and that's? really worrying? ]
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Sometimes it's good to give yourself some time for something like that.