[ he has very obviously been crying a lot off and on since the end of yesterday's trial. but at least his dog ears perk up at hearing his nickname again, and there's some relief mixed in with everything else when he looks up. ]
Um. Not... really that great, honestly.
[ a weak shrug. ]
I-it's bad for you too though, right? You just... went through that whole thing with him...
I think I'd be more surprised if you were doing well. This weekend's been really hard on everyone, huh?
Mm... If it weren't for him, I don't know if I'd have been able to keep up with the others, after the first mission. But there's nothing we can do about it now, so... I don't know. The best we can do is make sure it doesn't happen again, isn't it?
I just... keep thinking about things I should have done before it was too late. I was trying to explain why the evidence didn't point to him, but... I'm not a defense attorney, and I'm not good at that. I should've looked for more evidence, o-or pressed that other guy with the missing razor harder...
I know I can't do anything about it now, but... still...
I know, but— I'm the one who's supposed to be great at trials and catching guilty criminals!! This is my whole thing! I'd promised not to disappoint anyone, and now a guy I was kind of friends with is dead 'cause I wasn't good enough!
And I believe that you are. The thing is, these trials are different than anything any of us have done, at least before our last... scenario before coming here, and you said your run before was even shorter. Taking it all on yourself... that isn't fair to you.
But... if I can't do it here, what good am I to anybody? I mean, what if I can't even save Pops?! Bucky was strong and brave and really wanted to save his guy, and it still ended up like this!
This place doesn't have the laws we're used to, though. And it's got weird magic and abilities that aren't easy to trace. You can't blame yourself for having a hard time with it, okay?
Besides, all you have to do to save him is survive. You're doing great on that so far. And I don't want to give up on Bucky yet, or anyone else.
Believe me, I know how you feel. I don't even attorney experience on my side, you know? I'm just an artist.
But I think, as long as you're willing to work with everyone else to try to figure it out, you are helping. You contributed for the hint and all, didn't you?
[ ignoring the fact that the hint sent us all spiraling ]
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Um. Not... really that great, honestly.
[ a weak shrug. ]
I-it's bad for you too though, right? You just... went through that whole thing with him...
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I think I'd be more surprised if you were doing well. This weekend's been really hard on everyone, huh?
Mm... If it weren't for him, I don't know if I'd have been able to keep up with the others, after the first mission. But there's nothing we can do about it now, so... I don't know. The best we can do is make sure it doesn't happen again, isn't it?
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I just... keep thinking about things I should have done before it was too late. I was trying to explain why the evidence didn't point to him, but... I'm not a defense attorney, and I'm not good at that. I should've looked for more evidence, o-or pressed that other guy with the missing razor harder...
I know I can't do anything about it now, but... still...
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Besides, all you have to do to save him is survive. You're doing great on that so far. And I don't want to give up on Bucky yet, or anyone else.
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I just wish it ever felt like I was making things better instead of worse.
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But I think, as long as you're willing to work with everyone else to try to figure it out, you are helping. You contributed for the hint and all, didn't you?
[ ignoring the fact that the hint sent us all spiraling ]