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Hm? But don't all the smartest people love classical music? I like listening to it when I need to focus, too.
You mean if there's an art room somewhere...? IDK if they'd tell you this early... but if they do, I def want to know about it! It'd be something to look forward to!
You mean if there's an art room somewhere...? IDK if they'd tell you this early... but if they do, I def want to know about it! It'd be something to look forward to!
I'm kind of curious what they thought you'd listen to instead. Classical seems like what you'd expect from a lawyer, IMO.
[ hm?? ]
They did do tasks for healing, so it's not impossible that they could do it for other things, too. But I wouldn't want you to do that for me... if they tell you it's possible, just let me know? Then I'll take care of it.
[ hm?? ]
They did do tasks for healing, so it's not impossible that they could do it for other things, too. But I wouldn't want you to do that for me... if they tell you it's possible, just let me know? Then I'll take care of it.
Yeah, I'm not sure either... but also I don't know if there's really a typical kind of music for lawyers? My pops was a prosecutor too, but he's a big classic rock fan! If you saw him you'd definitely never mistake him for someone who listens to classical or opera or whatever.
[ and you would... probably have a lot of questions... but, anyway. ]
I mean, buying some paint's gotta be easier than magically healing someone, right? It probably wouldn't be that big of a deal! ...But yeah, okay.
[ and you would... probably have a lot of questions... but, anyway. ]
I mean, buying some paint's gotta be easier than magically healing someone, right? It probably wouldn't be that big of a deal! ...But yeah, okay.
You aren't wrong! All kinds of people like all kinds of different music. It's not really fair to judge someone based on that alone, but it happens.
[ he's kind of curious about seb's dad now though? what does this mean. ]
Maybe! I just think that if they do exchanges like that, you should use it for something you need instead.
[ he's kind of curious about seb's dad now though? what does this mean. ]
Maybe! I just think that if they do exchanges like that, you should use it for something you need instead.
[ this party has been a novel and mostly fun experience!! but also it was a lot and some of the dares were mean and he had several drinks and one of them splashed out of the glass and stained his white glove and now he's just standing against a wall somewhere looking at his hand and tearing up. ]
I just— got this stupid stain on my glove, and then I remembered this other stupid stain I got on it before, and then I remembered the guy I talked to while I was washing it back then and how it felt like we were actually in the same boat together... and how it felt like that with most of them, even if they were all pretty crappy about that vampire assaulting me...
But now it's like everyone has been in these things so much longer and has these people they've known forever and I'm just some stupid kid who's completely out of the loop and doesn't have the same experiences as anyone! And some of the dares were mean and— and it feels like no one ever takes me seriously or likes me!
[ he sniffles loudly. ]
And now you're just calling me by name instead, when I really liked that nickname... 'cause then it felt like at least one person actually thought I was the best... and Harrowhark was glaring at me for like five minutes and I don't... Did I do something wrong??
But now it's like everyone has been in these things so much longer and has these people they've known forever and I'm just some stupid kid who's completely out of the loop and doesn't have the same experiences as anyone! And some of the dares were mean and— and it feels like no one ever takes me seriously or likes me!
[ he sniffles loudly. ]
And now you're just calling me by name instead, when I really liked that nickname... 'cause then it felt like at least one person actually thought I was the best... and Harrowhark was glaring at me for like five minutes and I don't... Did I do something wrong??
[ whoa. you're really in it, aren't you, buddy? ]
No one should be assaulting you. [ obviously?? but it sounds like sebastian needs to hear someone agree with him right now. ] So you feel out of place with the rest of us? But I think it's a good thing that you don't have the same experiences as we do. Some of the things we've been through aren't things that I'd wish on anyone.
...Isn't this what I always call you?
[ he seems to genuinely believe that? ]
I can't speak for Harrow, but I doubt you've done anything wrong. Some people just think that the way you react to things is funny. It doesn't mean they don't like you.
No one should be assaulting you. [ obviously?? but it sounds like sebastian needs to hear someone agree with him right now. ] So you feel out of place with the rest of us? But I think it's a good thing that you don't have the same experiences as we do. Some of the things we've been through aren't things that I'd wish on anyone.
...Isn't this what I always call you?
[ he seems to genuinely believe that? ]
I can't speak for Harrow, but I doubt you've done anything wrong. Some people just think that the way you react to things is funny. It doesn't mean they don't like you.
[ yeah he sure is! all the time! ]
What? No... it isn't...
[ are you pranking him?? it's not funny!! ]
And I know the stuff you all went through was really bad, but you're all closer because of it, right? And I'm just the idiot who doesn't understand anything that everyone laughs at!
What? No... it isn't...
[ are you pranking him?? it's not funny!! ]
And I know the stuff you all went through was really bad, but you're all closer because of it, right? And I'm just the idiot who doesn't understand anything that everyone laughs at!
[ he just looks? confused? about the name thing?
but anyway. kazunari gives a soft sigh. ]
That depends on the people who are here with us... Out of those of us from the prism, Emet Selch and I aren't close. I don't think Marie-san is close with him, either, and she has every reason to hate me. Everyone else... maybe they are close. But you didn't come here alone, either, did you?
And you're trying to understand where everyone else stands, aren't you? That means a lot, you know. Everyone wants someone who can do that - but also someone who'll be patient enough to let them say what they need to on their own time, when they're ready to.
but anyway. kazunari gives a soft sigh. ]
That depends on the people who are here with us... Out of those of us from the prism, Emet Selch and I aren't close. I don't think Marie-san is close with him, either, and she has every reason to hate me. Everyone else... maybe they are close. But you didn't come here alone, either, did you?
And you're trying to understand where everyone else stands, aren't you? That means a lot, you know. Everyone wants someone who can do that - but also someone who'll be patient enough to let them say what they need to on their own time, when they're ready to.
That doesn't mean you don't still matter to him.
[ ...this is the logical question, of course, but it makes kazunari shift uncomfortably as the paint on his arms and hands turns a deep blue. ]
I killed someone while I was refracting in the prism. There was a gun involved, and she was one of the few who had a gun, so... She got the majority vote that weekend. It wasn't solely because of what I did, but without a better explanation, she took the blame for it.
[ ...this is the logical question, of course, but it makes kazunari shift uncomfortably as the paint on his arms and hands turns a deep blue. ]
I killed someone while I was refracting in the prism. There was a gun involved, and she was one of the few who had a gun, so... She got the majority vote that weekend. It wasn't solely because of what I did, but without a better explanation, she took the blame for it.
[ yeah. he nods. ]
Maybe things were different for some other places... I don't know. But maybe it's better for us not to make any guesses about that, and get to know everyone while we're here now? If you want to feel closer to everyone, there's no better way than talk to them.
Maybe things were different for some other places... I don't know. But maybe it's better for us not to make any guesses about that, and get to know everyone while we're here now? If you want to feel closer to everyone, there's no better way than talk to them.
[ he has very obviously been crying a lot off and on since the end of yesterday's trial. but at least his dog ears perk up at hearing his nickname again, and there's some relief mixed in with everything else when he looks up. ]
Um. Not... really that great, honestly.
[ a weak shrug. ]
I-it's bad for you too though, right? You just... went through that whole thing with him...
Um. Not... really that great, honestly.
[ a weak shrug. ]
I-it's bad for you too though, right? You just... went through that whole thing with him...
[ pats his arm. ]
I think I'd be more surprised if you were doing well. This weekend's been really hard on everyone, huh?
Mm... If it weren't for him, I don't know if I'd have been able to keep up with the others, after the first mission. But there's nothing we can do about it now, so... I don't know. The best we can do is make sure it doesn't happen again, isn't it?
I think I'd be more surprised if you were doing well. This weekend's been really hard on everyone, huh?
Mm... If it weren't for him, I don't know if I'd have been able to keep up with the others, after the first mission. But there's nothing we can do about it now, so... I don't know. The best we can do is make sure it doesn't happen again, isn't it?
[ leans against him just a little. ]
I just... keep thinking about things I should have done before it was too late. I was trying to explain why the evidence didn't point to him, but... I'm not a defense attorney, and I'm not good at that. I should've looked for more evidence, o-or pressed that other guy with the missing razor harder...
I know I can't do anything about it now, but... still...
I just... keep thinking about things I should have done before it was too late. I was trying to explain why the evidence didn't point to him, but... I'm not a defense attorney, and I'm not good at that. I should've looked for more evidence, o-or pressed that other guy with the missing razor harder...
I know I can't do anything about it now, but... still...
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